i dont know why lah.. i find it weird that i dont trust anyone anymore.. hmm.. just by the words they say bah... words can be deceiving.. they can say until very nice very good and praise you up high into the sky, and also give you hope but then all these are all fake de.. it really turn me off real bad arh... well i may deceive myself that the words that they say to me de is real arh and i will have hopes in those words and be really happy with it loh.. but then another side is, i will think that izzit real or just wan to bluff me make me happy only loh.. they can say lieing sometimes will make someone happy lah.. but then lieing all the time is not good also.. "shan yi de huang yan" right? there is a saying mah.. "look at the brighter side of life" i always wanted to.. but then it doesnt lead me to the place i wan lah... so i tried to believe in their words and waited loh.. waiting will make a person tired and all hopes gone... waiting is really tired to me lah... but then i never gave up.. cos waiting may also give you good harvest at a later time... yar... it really show how evil a human can be... scary right..

but then yar, empty promises really are bad lah.. no one will ever like the feeling bah.. it will seem like nothing happen arh.. but then it really hurts a lot a lot.. sometimes you really cannot understand how a hurt person feel loh.. even if you say you gone through before... but then at the moment you really cannot...

maybe some will feel that my words are not true arh.. but then this is how i feel.. freedom to talk, freedom to do anything, freedom to think... yar... this is society lah...

i do keep a lot to myself... cos what for adding on to others when you know others are also having their own problems to fan with... right.. being quiet is one thing... being noisy is another bah... noisy i can lah... but then do you know its fake de? i am not always a happy person you know.. i can be emo, mood swing at times.. arghh.. sometimes mood swing is really getting on with me.. hate it..

being really happy is the true "xing fu".. being happy will make everything positive for you... nothing will get in your way... i know.. cos i ever being very happy before... nothing gets in your way... you can do anything you wan.. no one cares... but then sometimes the happiness really is short term only.. memories...


AHTu sign out...

This *cute* 19year old rocker name is Michelle.
also knowned as AHTu.
She came in cold, covered in blood on 31th May 1988.
Has been growing since then, & is about 1.7m in height now.
You can e-mail & msn at genki_is@hotmail.com
She's a Singaporean, so naturally speaks SINGLISH.

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aiyo, dont know how to type izzit? simple words also dont know how to spell.. lol